Happiness DOESN’T depend on what happens??! Huh?! It’s: “how I choose to RESPOND to what happens?! WTF?!!
Fuck: PAIN is necessary for growth?!
I am a bad bad bad Gardner.
I am a bad banana friend. Explains a lot.
I have not paid attention to my plant’s instruction manual.
I do not like metaphorical Winter, either.
I am afraid. Of change, among other things.
I am a prisoner of my twig. TwigS.
Blinders are not helpful. Neither is hiding.
I do not really look good in tights.
I am sleeping with a Chicken. Or an ostritch.
So is he.
Un-learning is a lotta work.
I prefer raisons d’être. Don’t I?
I suck at relaxing.
But those “I’m worried that…”, “I can’t until…”, “Someday I will…”, and “What if…” chants are so engrained in me.
I don’t know how to dance.
Being STILL?!! Really?!
The answer is…Ralph?
I HAVE been resonating. (and I’m quite good at it.) Just the wrong thoughts. Energies. Messages.
Self-fulfilling programming?! That’s what it’s called?!
Augh. I am not a very positive person.
Oh my god this lady beside me is peeling a fkn guava with a plastic fork.
That R.W.E. Guy was pretty smart.
I have many boat-, yacht-, and helicopter-ppl in my life.
My moods seem to overshadow my Faith.
Ugh. I’m settling for a 5-life.
It’s SO FKN SCARY to l e t g o.
Omg: “I consciously stay focused on what I have to gain by letting go of that…messes up relationship.” oh wow. Wow.
The messy areas of my life are simply areas under construction.
I DO want that joy, happiness, and love.
“Even my yearning for sex is really a dyslexic search for Love.”
If I am not a happy person inside me, then nothing Outside will ever make me happy and able to feel love. [damn]
Now what?
